Our first "Not Yes" was in Washington while we were in the car with the real estate agent driving away from the property on which we were about to make an offer. Doug's phone and my phone rang at the same time. On my line was our Houston real estate agent informing us that the sale on our house had fallen through and on Doug's line was his boss back pedaling, insisting he come back to Houston in January after he had, on a previous call, told him he was sure it would be "no big deal" if we relocated to Washington.
We've had many "Not Yeses" since then.
- The Legends House, perfect square footage, good location, and an IRS lien.
- A very nice rental in a desirable neighborhood... not available until July.
- A five bedroom, three bedroom, 4000 square foot house, in our price range... doesn't allow children, desires a retired couple. (Who does that?!)
- House after house after house with offers made just before we arrived, sellers deciding not to sell, and so many other circumstances that prevented us from acquiring the house.
I have been praying for a home to just settle in.
And I feel like God is truly challenging me with this:
This world is not my home. I am not SUPPOSED TO feel settled here! Like a soldier on the battlefield I can have "base" but my "base" is not my home.
But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ.
Philippians 3:20
And this, so this. Philippians 4:12-13
I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
We are still currently looking for a home to rent or buy if it's right. But are content to wait on the LORD. (OK, maybe content is a bit of a faith filled statement, but we are trying)
(Here's our specs in case you're wondering 5 bdrm, 3 bath, 3500sq ft minimum, with room for kids to play outside $350K or less or $2500/month)
And we are not sure if this is a NOT YES or not...
We now have more opportunity to trust the Lord since Doug's company was sold a few weeks ago and he gets to present his department to the bosses of the new company, "So they can know all that they will need to know." Nice. We've been down this road before and despite reassurances, we don't feel very reassured.
It's nice to sing this song, it's another thing entirely to live it.
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
I will call upon Your Name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine
My husband assured me today that God hasn't forgotten us. I burst into tears. Truly, I did. He then relayed a conversation that he had this morning that is so GOD. No one will ever convince me it's a coincidence.
Doug had filled out a prayer request and took it to the little box on the wall, there was a guy standing there. This conversation ensued:
Doug: "Are you a prayer guy?"
Usher: "No, I'm an usher" Pause... "But I can pray, I guess."
Doug: "Well, I'm a training manager and my company was just bought out by a larger company and my job is a little uncertain right now"
Usher: Chuckling, "Well, now I know why God sent you to me. You see, I'm a trainer. A few weeks ago, my company was bought out and my job was uncertain. I ended up getting offered another position in the new company."
WHAT?! THE NOT-A-PRAYER-GUY STANDING AT THE EXACT SPOT MY (never-fills-out prayer-requests) HUSBAND WALKED TO!
OK, OK, OK.
LORD, I WILL TRUST YOU!
Housing, Employment, Adoption, Children, Energy, Schooling...
trust...
Trust...
TRUST...
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6
P.S. I had literally just finished writing this post and handing it to my husband to proofread for me when my six year old Sarah started shouting, "COME OUTSIDE AND SEE THE RAINBOW!" over and over. We all went and were inspired by the sign of God's promise. Truly, He has not forgotten us.
My soul will (CHOOSE TO) rest in Your embrace - For I am Yours and You are mine!! A cheesy, but true saying from YWAM dayz "Where God guides, He will Provide". He has provided. Your enthusiasm in this faith journey (all of you) have been obvious and LOUD. You are His...and He IS yours. May the joy from a year ago return and THIS load be lifted. I'm so glad you can see His hand. rest - joy - peace - strength!
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